Tuesday, January 31, 2006
today's the 3rd day of chinese new year..well, nothing much happened today except that some of my relatives came to visit my family and i. finally had some peace and quiet to do my homework.yesterday a classmate smsed me about the geography test. it's on thursday, 2nd Feb. all along i thought it's on the 6th due to a stupid misunderstanding. i jotted the test date down in my organiser as " geog test, 2nd Feb'06 "and so i remember ok. 6th.argh. i thought i had more time to study but well. i'm really in deep deep trouble now. i've only read through the notes once or twice but that's not enough to get me ready for the test. luckily my classmate messaged me. thanks. if not the test would have come as a surprise one.hmm ok shall not talk about this on a joyous occasion. haha.so everyone.. how was your Chinese new year?
7:30 PM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
yesterday was the celebration in school..kind of fun with all the performance and games. best was the dance and community singing. did the Sundance but was so noob at it.. forgot all the dancesteps already. Buses held hands and ran around the parade square. fun fun!! enjoyed myself thoroughly.after that was training. nah Ningxin it's ok. you didn't make me lag. is myself noob. all of us went with empty stomachs because the school canteen wasn't functioning. haha. rushed to Gombak Macdonalds after that. whoa. first Peishi spilled Kuanloong's drink onto the floor and my bag. ( Peishi it's ok dear) awhile later i spilled mine! this is something i'll remember for life, quoted from Ningxin : "jade, seems like there will be something interesting happening to you everyday.."dots ya i agree. due to the fact that i'm so so so blur, something interesting will happen to me everyday. it just happened today, i'll talk about that later. though not guaranteed it'll be interesting to everyone.then it was crossers' time trial, went to turf city to support them. slept for awhile on the grandstand while they did warmups. whoo all of them ran very well! timings were extremely good. good.after that i left early because i needed to rush for my dental appoinment. waited for the shuttle bus for 20 minutes then saw Chrislyn and Leena coming out. after they knew about my appoinment they told me walk out take public bus faster. i thought turf city is at Clementi?? after that they told me then i realised.. all along it's at Bukit Timah.. dots.ok so i walked out. argh. i realised i didn't know where the bus-stop was. i forgot to ask them! so i went round and round the carpark till i ended up exactly at where i met Chrislyn and Leena. erm ok. they were gone but the other carrots were there. so in the end had to walk out with them because they knew the way.i went up the bus and kept a lookout for the place as it was my first time taking it. despite so i still missed my bus-stop. was late for the appoinment so i had to run about 1km to reach there. sighs.ok now today was the reunion dinner. during the dinner my cousins gave me a cup of somewhat like chrysanthemum tea. i took a very big gulp and realised that IT WAS BEER. argh. after that i was like super tired and i'm having a headache now. am i drunk? argh.. BEER DOESN'T TASTE GOOD.haha. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE! (:
9:23 PM
Thursday, January 26, 2006
you know how is it like when you have done something wrong and that when you realised it it's already too late to do anything about it..you know how does it feel like when you've disappointed someone whom you respect so much..you know how is it like when you screwed up something which you love to do..all these happened in just one day..really very sorry to have let you down.. but the worst thing is that i disappointed myself..how could i have made such a mistake.. when instructions were so clear.i hate myself for who i am.. i just can't do anything right..and it was such a stupid mistake.. (if _ _ _ _ _ _ _ is reading this, i tell you, i'm even worse than you..)there's a price to pay to be so blur, sometimes a heavy one.time can't be reversed.. but i can't help but to brood over it.i'd rather realise it later than now..it happened at the wrong time..ahh.. sorry for this post..just gotta let it out..
5:52 PM
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
today was maths test..it went quite well at first because the questions were similar to what i've done before UNTIL my BLURNESS came in and play a part too. that particular question i consulted my classmate in the morning.. but i forgot how to do.. so i anyhow write working. after that left with 5 minutes before test ends. went back to the question. finally figured out! ok so i started writing and writing. " ok time's up. pens down. stop writing."i couldn't finish the questions. but at least still got method and workings marks right. somehow i CANCELLED OUT THE CORRECT WORKING instead of the wrong one. gosh! 7 marks gone like that!! could have at least gotten 5 marks!!! now think is 0 already.. ahhh.. i hate myself..then another thing. before training had lunch in school. bought chicken rice and happily went to sit down and eat. i was too hungry. when i sat down, i realised that i took 2 spoons..haha. that's all for today.. (:oh ya, thursday's history paper (:
8:04 PM
Sunday, January 22, 2006
i can't even solve simple kinematics problems.i'm so stupid.i'm so slow.i'm confused.i'm so useless.i'm such a failure.i'm gonna die for maths test.
8:17 PM
happy birthday Chuanmin!monday's maths test. kinematics! ahh. i'm going to die already.feeling quite depressed over some things. problems that seem like they can never be solved. they're stuck in my head and i wonder when will i be free from them. life's getting meaningless with nothing but troubles, troubles and troubles.haha. do all teenagers feel the same way? or is it just me? sometimes i just don't know what to do and where to start from. i'll just stone and wait for something to come but even i myself don't know what i'm waiting for. that's how lost i am.but i have a few bunches (???) of people who never fail to cheer me up when i'm with them. my family, carrots, 2Gaoxiao-ians and 3Buses. yup. i'm glad to have you all. thanks.that's all for today..
11:56 AM
Thursday, January 19, 2006
today finally got time and energy to update. though not as if anyone is interested..these few days were really really busy. CCA, class commitments, extra lesson.. reach home quite late each day and will never fail to have an hour's sleep before starting on homework. so i've been sleeping at 12 plus 1 in the morning. wake up feeling super tired before school. i guess i have to re-adjust my time already or else i won't be able to concentrate during lessons.ahh. talking about school life. sec3 is even more fast-paced than last year, last last year.. in the sense that time is never enough. or at least for me. before i know it one day already passes.next week's common tests.. scared+stressed+stupid = cannot do well. this is me.. sighs.haha ok i'm getting used to my new class: 3Bus-stops. cute name eh? haha. quite a united group of people. kind of love it. i hope we'll all live in harmony for the rest of upper secondary. " happiness doesn't come by easily.. people even spend a lifetime searching for it. but i know for sure there's somewhere you can sense it.. and that is in your friends' smiles.."yup, guess that's all for today.. (:
7:23 PM
Monday, January 16, 2006
today's 16th January..HAPPY BIRTHDAY RV AND JESS!!haha. my little sister's birthday falls on the same day as RV's. ok today's celebration was kind of the same as last year if i didn't remember wrongly. parade then speeches. i was fascinated by their marching. very very neat and tidy. haha as in their movement were like all the same. nice nice.after that went back to class for a somewhat delicious treat. hotdog bun and chocolate cakes. but then i heard from Dawn that the buns were leftovers from yesterday. hahaha. but still ate it because i was hungry.then was house meeting. unicorn rocks! haha of course other houses rock too. well, i guess we sec3s didn't do quite a good job cheering as it was too noisy then we couldn't hear the cheerleaders. but overall it was quite fun to see all the unicorn-ians once again.proceeded back to class for some stuff.. basically to clear off the remaining buns which were meant for the absentees.following that was 2G outing!! it was very very nice to see Gaoxiao-ians gathering once again. at first on our way to Jurong East Entertainment something happened which i shall not elaborate on. but it was resolved just in time.they wanted to go Pizza Hut but had to wait till 1.30pm for the offer. reached there about 1.5 hour early so meanwhile all of us sat in a circle and started playing games. realised all of them haven't changed. still the same old Gaoxiao-ians. love them.finally the time came and we went in to have our lunch. was starving like mad. wow. when all of us stepped into the place, the other diners looked at us like aliens. haha because there were many of us streaming in. settled down and ordered food.sighs. i miss 2G terribly. when we were all eating and talking i was down there thinking. i looked like i was concentrating on my baked rice but i was pondering on some stuff. how i wished 2G could come together and study in the same classroom again. i know this is near impossible but i really really want to. i mean.. i haven't had enough fun with them yet. class outings never had 100% attendance. only lessons. it's been so long since EVERYONE came together. i miss the copy-homework-session every morning. (although it's not right) i miss the noise and crap. i miss going for laboratory lessons with the class. i miss Yenchai's 'ahhhh..'. i miss all your laughters. i miss the way Shaun stalls for time during Mr Tong's lessons. i miss everything.guess that's all for today..
5:58 PM
Sunday, January 15, 2006
thanks to those who tagged.. i'm ok now. (:yesterday was the school anniversary concert.. not bad. it was interesting. especially the dance. wow. RV dancers are good (: and erm.. i think you got the wrong idea..haha. it was all coincidence.this is so lame.. haha.don't worry too much.it's not what you think.nothing's wrong..trust me.please.
8:26 PM
Friday, January 13, 2006
it's finally friday.. (oops friday the 13th. good luck everyone(: )all of us are getting busier since this week. workload has certainly increased by a lot. have been getting home late these days. about 5 plus 6. totally tired out.. can't even take a nap in peace. will be thinking about how am i going to finish piles of homework, how will i have time to do my revision and stuff. what i look forward to everyday is the 10-15 minute-bus ride from Jurong Interchange to my house. i could at least shut my eyes and rest a little.today was quite an easy day because of the concert rehearsal. half the class was gone and some teachers were not in class so we had a few free periods. even when teachers came in nothing was taught. we just had to do our own work or else: slack.but then even though there were pratically no lessons, i felt really stressed out. we were all doing homework during the free period with the guys telling jokes from time to time. it was really nice. thanks. the jokes made me forget about problems temporarily. when we went back to our work, it's like it all came back as well.it's like.. there are so many things which i don't know and understand. Geography and Maths are killing me. ever since i missed the first lesson of maths on the CCA trials day, i'm like at a loss whenever Ms Yew gives us worksheets to complete. i feel like i've missed out a lot. it's either i don't know how to solve kinematics questions or i take ages to do one. the factors affecting temperature and what not. i'm confused.sometimes i think i'm not even fit to be in 3B. i can't handle so many things at a time and time never seems enough for me. i can't even do my homework properly although i try hard to. i should have chosen 8 subjects instead of 9. i knew right from the start i couldn't do it. this is only the 2nd week of school and i already have difficulty coping. obviously there's more to expect in time to come. what will happen to me then? i'm afraid i would break down anytime..common tests are taking place in the 4th week. two more weeks to prepare only and i still have so many things which i do not understand. i think i'm going to flunk the tests. or rather, i'm sure i'm going to flunk them. ahh. i'm so stressed out. somebody help!! advice please??guess that's all for today..
5:20 PM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
yesterday i was just having a small chat with Shaun..(no offense to 3Bus-stop'o6 though.. i love Buses..)it went something like that:Shaun: how's your class?Me: overall quite a good class, people here are very friendly, not bad. then how's yours? bet it's the best.. ( cos got a lot of 2G people)Shaun: my class is not the best.. 2G is..man. that almost sent a tear down my cheeks. i miss 2G a lot a lot.i'm sorry Buses.. i know i shouldn't be saying all these when i'm already in a new class now.. sorry..and thanks Shaun, for that message. you rock. 2G rocks. 3Bus-stops rocks.
5:57 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
today was a tiring day..i've finally realised how difficult is it to be a subject rep. especially after the holidays. so much homework to collect. haha. today i collected 7 pieces of homework each from 38 people including myself. whoa. had to sort it out according to the respective assignments. stayed back in class to sort it out.thanks a lot to PEISHI, NINGXIN AND CHUANMIN for your help and patience. i bet i was VERY slow in doing things. gosh i have to speed up next time. or else i won't be able to get things done.well.. i guess since i wanted and agreed to be the Chinese rep, i can't have any complains about the job. in fact, i love the job, because i love the subject and the teacher. haha. i'm willing to do anything to help her. another thing is that, it actually isn't a bad thing after all. so let this be a 'responsibility test' for myself. see how responsible i am/ i can/i'm going to be. i just hope that i'll do a good job..and most importantly, hope that I WON'T LOSE ANY OF MY CLASSMATE'S WORKSHEET. my friends know how blur/careless i am. i just made a mistake today. i couldn't find one of Lirui's assignment then i smsed him and asked him to check. he replied saying that he didn't have it with him. then i went back to flip through the thick stack again. gosh it was found in between his other assignments. SORRY!! haha. luckily everything's all right now.and. sorry to you guys. you know who you are. i'm sorry i seemed a little too pissed. but actually not pissed with you all, i was pissed with myself. i didn't know how to go about doing it at first because it's like so rushed and complicated. everyone was talking to me and i couldn't concentrate. real real sorry. thanks a lot for your help. i appreciated it very much. (:yup, guess that's all for today (:
10:58 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006
hey sorry people.. was really busy during the first few days of school so i didn't update. erm ok.. this week in school is quite relaxed because most teachers haven't started lessons. had to settle down and everything so yup.well i'm in a new class now. it's quite ok actually. i find my classmates nice and friendly so i guess everything's going to be all right. 7 carrots including me got into the same class. Emily as the Chairperson, Ningxin as the Chem rep, Janice as CIP rep, Abel as assistant treasurer, Li Rui as AVA rep, Kahlok as welfare head and i as Chinese rep (:oh ya we called the class 3Bus-stops. so we are all buses. haha.and.. oh the class got scolded by Mrs Lee on the first day of school. she thought we were late for her lesson because she used the normal timetable instead of the one for Orientation week. sighs. the whole class rushed to the laboratory once we were informed of it. then Kahlok was like 'wah everyone so enthu about her lesson.' yeah indeed we were very enthusiastic. hahaha. we didn't stroll or what. we RAN. throughout the lesson the whole class was SILENT. i must say that it's very stressful in her class but at the same time, she could make everyone pay attention to what she says and i thought it's pretty nice. so we won't miss any important instruction.hmm. today had CCA trials. saw quite a few sec1s will potential to run. that's great.(: took timings in the rain was fun. haha. so.. erm.. the first week of school has just ended. i hope everyone is happy in your new class and things are going on smoothly for all of you. all the best for the days to come. (:yup guess that's all for today. (:
5:47 PM
Sunday, January 01, 2006
this is dedicated to all 2Gaoxiao-ians: (please please bear with my long-windedness)wow today's the 3rd last day of holidays. we're all going to start another school year in 3 days' time. would have known our classes by now, and most of you guys won't be going to the same class as me. well, 2 years passed so quickly in RV and i haven't had enough fun with you all yet.if you like X-men, you should be happy. cos we're all gonna be X-CLASSMATES. (dots. ok lame )at the beginning of last year, when i first stepped into the class, what i saw was mostly unfamiliar faces. i was real scared because it was a totally new environment. i guess the same went for all of us. having so many strangers in the same class as me was weird. really weird.haha. after a few months, when we got to know each other better, horrible things started to happen. girls and guys couldn't get together. whenever there were projects or groupwork, quarrels definitely had a part to play. even simple discussions like class outing took the welfare committee ages to communicate with the class. our results were ranked one of the lowest in the level. teachers hated us for our bad behaviour and some even had to come in to keep us quiet. the situation of our class couldn't get any worse.this year, fortunately, girls and guys started to come together. to play, to do projects, to talk, and even copy homework. haha. i guess everyone cared for everyone else. that's nice. the class got so united, we weren't even defeated by the rumours that spread among the level. (in this case i shan't elaborate on the rumour) the belief and the bond within the class was real strong.i forgot which test/exam was it, but remember we topped the level for SBQ (history)? though it's only a section of the subject, all of us clapped so loudly for the class when Sir announced the news. i guess the happiness came from the bottom of our hearts. nobody would have dreamt of that, based on our academic results for last year. it was really a great encouragement for all of us. this shows that nothing is impossible if we put in our best. it should be ACES (spelt correctly?) day.. when all of us wore sarongs to dance. wow we were one of very few classes which bothered to buy them. i'm glad that the whole class co-operated and was willing to put on the costume. was it on the same day we celebrated Teachers' Day? can't remember but i guess everyone had a lot of fun with the teachers. the food was great too! games were entertaining and not to say, the forfeit! (:and to those who are still unaware of this, Shaun and Georgina made up on the last day of school. they apologised to each other and became good friends from that day. (: i guess they have no regrets leaving the class already.last but not least the very successful class chalet! though i couldn't stay for the last night, i bet it was enjoyable. i had a lot of fun there. those who contributed/turned up, i appreciated it a lot. really.yes, i'm glad that i was in this fantastic class. through these times i had with all of you, my fellow classmates, i've learnt quite a lot of things. trust, co-operation and many more. although the unity came only this year, i believe it's never too late. from the very-disorganised-and-notorious class, we grew into a bonded-and-united family. you guys accompanied me for these 2 stressful years, you guys brightened up my school life, you guys made me excited about coming to school every morning. i don't show it, but i really treasure the times i spent with every single one of you. i apologise for any wrongdoings towards anyone. i'm sorry..the bad and the good times with the class, combined to become very fond memories. we've come so far together as a class, i'm really sad to leave 2G. it hurts to part, but what can we do? reverse time? can't be. sighs. what i wanna say is i love all of you and all the best in your future endeavours.38 of us made up this very special class. it would've been different if it weren't you guys. 38 different people made up 1 big family. 2Gaoxiao'05.. the best there ever could be, the best there ever will be..class, THANK YOU
1:38 PM
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