athletics ghurL no. 11=) -WHEE*

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Lots and lots of events coming up.

ahh. should i thank them for making my life meaningful and not so empty or should i blame and grumble about them for keeping me so busy that i don't have time to do what i want to? haha.

anyway Coach was so cute yesterday. made us laugh like crazy. well besides that the long long talk that he gave was truly meaningful. sighs. i don't want to let him down ever again.

with just a little more effort, with just a little more determination, with just a little more discipline.

haha. yay i'm burnt. sunburnt.

what about a break from everything..?

7:53 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

so today was a lesson to be learnt.

things didn't go quite well for me today. sighs. i only have myself to blame isn't it. thanks to those who 'found' me there and those who talked to me. you guys helped. sorry to have made you guys run around looking for me, to the extent of combing the Little Guilin and tearing down the hills haha. really sorry.

i guess there are some problems which nobody can solve for you except yourself. it's all right to just be depressed, breakdown, upset about the failure but afterall, it won't make time turn back. it's all up in your mind. whether you want to pick yourself up from it, or you want to just keep brooding over it and do nothing. it's all up to you.

sighs. i'm totally worn out, be it physically or mentally. i reached home with 101% unwillingness. you two don't understand what i went through. they don't understand. he doesn't understand. not even her. sighs.

i really need to depend on myself.

come on, you can do it jade. be strong. hang in there. you're gonna pick yourself up..

and to every warrior who fought the battle, yesterday or today: great effort there people. rest well.

8:56 PM

Friday, March 24, 2006

and so today was Mr Chew's last day in RV.. ):

had a mini farewell party in class.. hmm. not really party but. no teaching. took a class photo with him and some other stuff. settled some 'admin' matters and it was dismissal.

sighs. wished he could stay longer. can't imagine History lessons without him. it will be so weird! hmm. but some things can't be helped can they. if you're reading this ( which is highly impossible but ) Mr Chew, thanks.. really thanks for everything. all the best (:

and so tomorrow another battle starts. jiayou jiayou people!

guess that's all for today..

9:06 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006

so this morning i was sick and didn't go to school.

well, had time at home and i made use of the time to do stuff which i never had the chance to on normal schooldays. i started on my Chemistry TYS, read through the Chinese papers for the month and went back to my Chemistry notes. if it were a normal thursday, would i be able to do that much? absolutely not. honestly speaking, i haven't been really following up on what's happening in Singapore and the World. if i hadn't flipped through 4 or so Wednesday papers, i wouldn't know how much i've missed.

i've finally managed to take a break from everything.

i was alone at home. it was so relaxing and i felt that i had all the time in the world. finally. for once, i don't have to go through the hectic and fast-paced school life which happens to be almost everyday. for once, i didn't feel sleepy after i woke up because i got out of bed at 9. yes, it's been ages since i've slept till that time. not even during the holidays. ok maybe only a day out of the seven.

while i was doing my stuff this thought suddenly struck me: why is it that i have to be sick in order to take a little break? i mean, if i had gone to school today, i would be rushing through everything like homework, so that i can revise for my Chemistry test tomorrow. i would be totally exhausted from the long school hours. although i met up with Ningxin after school and she told me that lessons were quite slack today, but will it be so everyday?

sighs. what am i doing all these for.

guess that's all for today..

gosh it happened.

9:34 PM

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Happy Birthday to Aaron! (: [a graduated senior]

25th & 26th March-

all the best fellow carrots!

please don't let it happen now..

8:01 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

it's now 1.15am, 15th March. ( ignore my blog time )

was online rushing through my translation worksheet. i got to a point when really almost couldn't take it because i was too tired but now, i can't sleep. argh.

let's talk about yesterday's training. the weather was killing all of us! the moment we stepped out of the grandstand, the sun appeared. what was that?!?! haha. to add on to our misery, Coach wasn't in a good mood and some of the unlucky ones got scolded by him. don't worry yeah? bet he didn't mean it.

and it was the most *erhem* day in Track and Field history! we kept talking about dirty stuff which will pollute young minds. haha. the way they said it.. really freaked me out. i didn't know about such things. i was kinda disgusted too. why? haha. well i guess i'm still immature. so there is a lot of things which i don't quite understand. like how Man think and so on. hmm. eee..

after the workout the seniors ( sec2 and above ) had a good chat on the track. we finished 4 of 120m and just rested/sat on the track, taking up about 3 lanes. what did we talk about? rumours of course! (duh?) haha. within the group of us and not. had a lot of fun during that 15 minutes. i hope there would be more of such talks as i think that will really help bond the different levels together. not to mention that we can 'know more about each other' hehehe. nah just kidding. but the chit-chat session was really nice. i've never felt so close to the seniors/juniors before. (:

oh ya! after training i got so thirsty that i chiong-ed to the provision shop at the MRT station.

*went into shop*
1) bought a bottle of f&n orange and finished it before Peishi was even halfway through her coke.
*went into shop again*
2) bought a cup of jelly (sounds childish but yummy ! haha)
*went into shop again again*
3) bought a bottle of yakult ( spelt correctly? it's the rival of vitagen ) and finished it in a gulp
*went into shop again again again*
4) bought a bottle of mineral water, drank half and left the other for Chuanmin

haha i was like going in and out of the shop till the aunty laughed at me. haha no choice, people very thirsty! Peishi, Chuanmin and Xiu min were amazed at my appetite/water capacity or whatever you call that hehehe. but i guess it's all right since it's after training under the hot sun for don't know how long. (:

yup, guess that's all for today..

MOOO..

1:16 AM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

so today was the CIP at Buona Vista..

walked for about 2km+ i heard, with the residents and other sport CCAs from school. hmm. i think it was quite boring during the walk because i personally don't like to walk haha. i only like to run (: Fann, Joycelyn and i walked together since we could not help distribute the food plus, i lost Chuanmin right from the start..

me: wah.. i feel like sleeping leh.
Fann: ya lor.
Fann: why not you close your eyes and sleep then we hold your hand and guide you?

haha. and we really did that. i shut my eyes then let the two of them help me through the route. actually i planned to remain like this throughout the entire walkathon but decided to stop when i kept stepping on the old lady's shoes in front of me. i think she was quite pissed with me oops! sorry!

i think many people have played that game before, with you being blindfolded and then your teammate will hold your hand and guide you through. i think it's a game of trust whereby you have to depend on that person because you've totally 'lost the ability to see'. it's quite meaningful in my opinion. haha. i told them i trust them and i really did. i was sort of fang xin-ed to walk normally. only when they said there were steps then did i take small steps. Fann and Joycelyn did a pretty good job! (: thanks girls. for allowing me to have that though little but meaningful 15 minutes of rest.

so we continued to walk. when we were reaching the finishing point, Joycelyn and i were super enthusiastic due to a particular reason : food! haha. we chiong-ed towards the helpers and got our long awaited fried bee hoon. haha. went to find the others and ate with them.

after we were dismissed the fellow 3Buses went to class outing at Sentosa but i couldn't make it because of family commitment. but never mind i'll go for the next one! haha. i saw them to Harboufront MRT then went back when they left.

all in all, from this activity, the hypothesis which i created for myself has been justified and has officially become a theory: walking is more tiring than running. haha stupid right. sorry to those who don't like to run! this is just a theory which applies to me only. haha. it's the same to why i don't like to shop with my mum. she would just go rounds and rounds non-stop. ):

haha. guess that's all for today (: moomoo has to go and sleep already. though she has already taken two naps but. haha.

MOOOOOOOOO..

10:08 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

it's been a long week. my mood went on a roller coaster ride during these 5 days. haha. but shall only talk about the happy stuff so that when i read through my blog n months down the road i'll be able to laugh at how blur/gong/silly i am/was.

first scenario: Ms Chan gave us back our english common test essay. she indicated on my script that i was to see her because she wanted to talk about my verb tenses and so on. so well had to go see her. but her lesson ended when i went up and we went out of the class to talk.

when she was explaining something i noticed my classmates stream out of the room. so i thought " oh they're going for toilet break before the next teacher comes." i didnt' pay much attention to it and continued to listen to the teacher. after that, i went into the classroom, only to find 6 other people inside. then i sat down and prepared for the next lesson. took out my notes, files etc.

5 mins.. 10 mins gone..

me: hey Dorothy, where the class go huh? why only left with the 7 of us?
Dorothy: huh! now recess leh! jade you very not blur!
me: ...

ahh. to think i sat there like an idiot for 10 minutes waiting for my Geography teacher to come when it was recess. hahahahaha.

2nd scenario: after gym training, Ningxin, Jared and i went home together because we were the only ones taking the train towards Jurong East from Commonwealth. we were chatting and somehow touched on the topic of homework for the day.

Ningxin: hmm. we have Bio prac and Geog only right?
me: ( didn't say anything cos i couldn't remember. i jotted down in my organiser and forgot about them )
Jared: oh i have History and Physics prac.

after hearing this sentence, normal people will find nothing wrong.. perfectly fine..

but the slow and gonggong jade went..

" huh! History got prac one meh?? "

that sent Ningxin and Jared laughing from Clementi to Jurong East. and of course me duh. i saw them laugh i also wanted to laugh. hahahah. but i thought it's okay to interpret it as that way? people don't want to say ' history prac and physics prac' so they say 'history and physics prac'? hmmmmm. heihei (:

hehe. i think there should be some other rubbish about me but i can't remember.

and yes the holidays are finally here. though there is still going to be TONS of homework, training and other things, at least i can wake up earlier than normal schooldays. yay!

just to note them down in case i forget.. readers ( if any la ) can ignore this part. haha.

tmr: bio project at my house
sunday: 3B class outing
monday: translation class and guitar lesson
tuesday: training
wednesday: translation class
thursday: Mrs Lee's 3-hour lecture, 2G outing and perhaps self-training
friday: supporting the crossers for Wings. or is it Swift?

everyday: HOMEWORK

my one-supposedly-relaxing-and-perhaps-free-week is just gone like that. haha. but i think this time will be kind of busy and meaningful because i won't be wasting time lazing around like i did during the December holidays last year. at least i have deadlines to meet and homework to rush! yup.

hmm. guess that's all for today..

someone tell me what to do please..? it's suffocating.

9:43 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006

sometimes i'm just trapped in between. i don't know what to do or where to go..

10:19 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

yup so today was the race.

when i heard that i was in heat 1, i almost cried out. even more tensed up and worried, i went forward to take my number tag.

erm i couldn't really remember what happened during the race. i only knew that Coach was shouting " Go! Go! Go! Go! " during the first stretch.

at the end of the race, i collapsed at the finishing line and saw stars everywhere. my thighs were numb and i felt like falling whenever i took a step.

to the rest of the trackers who ran: no matter what, great job there because you've all tried your best. continue to jiayou with determination is what we should do ! (: cheer up everyone. we can take this kick. we can do it. we'll be back. yes we will.

a very big thanks to all who came down and support us. Karen, Emily, Leena, Amanda, Alanna, Jingjie. those who couldn't make it, it's all right! it's the thought that counts yeah (: you guys rock!

and also millions of thanks to those who gave me advice before the race, those who wished me good luck and stuff. you all rock too! haha.

hmm. i hope i can reflect something out of the race today except for light but i couldn't remember what happened during the most crucial part of the race. i forgot how i felt and what i was thinking. haha. maybe a bit but still not very accurate. hmm!

i can only see how demoralised i was before the race. now? i'm not quite sure. perhaps still the same. perhaps even more stressed. perhaps motivated. perhaps as if like the sky has fallen. i don't know.

haha but anyway. the experience was good.

hmm. that's all for today i guess.

a storm that can't seem to stop..

9:08 PM

Friday, March 03, 2006

friday.. (:

hmm. actually today we got back quite a few papers. my results are very lousy but i've gotten over it (: for the first time in my life i was able to look on the bright side of life, which i think will be able to help me in many ways. or perhaps i'm too used to things not going my way? haha. i'm not sure but the 'me' i know is becoming a happier person.

true. through obstacles, troubles and failures, one becomes stronger. like this time round, i managed to hold back my tears when i got back my physics paper. disappointed as i was, i reassured myself that i can do better next time if i hold on and work harder. the main idea is to never give up. perhaps i should think the same way towards my CCA.

came home today i did some reflection on my performance for Common Test 1. what did i not do well, what to do and stuff.

Reflections.

i think i've spent too much time on the computer. should set a curfew for myself since my parents do not do so. i got to push myself harder because once again, my parents do not give me stress at all. hai. which is not really a good thing.
i concentrated too much on a subject, resulting in quite a high score for only that particular one, while others.. erm. should balance it out.
cannot afford to waste time since everyday's a busy day. with daily homework, i should set aside some time to do revision on what's being taught each day as well.
not sleep too much. firstly, too much time will be taken up. secondly, the more i sleep, the more i feel tired = cannot concentrate = no good.
really really should have very good time management. perhaps should draw up a timetable which is possible for me to keep to.
not sleep too late at night as it will result in inability to concentrate in class the next day.
wake up my ideas and not be so careless again! ( this has cost me lots of marks for maths and science )
i'm not sure if some of the points were repeated but well. as long as i get the idea. haha (:

all the reforms will take place with effect from next week.

and i realised i've been sleeping a lot these two days. yesterday i reached home at 6 plus, took a nap at 7 and woke up at 12. did some homework till 2.30 and went back to sleep again. at 3.30, i woke up and did another round of homework. at 5 plus, i went back to sleep again, finally woke up at 6 to prepare for school. erm. ok it's not a lot but as can be seen my timings and schedule have gone haywire.

today i reached home at 3 plus i think. slept from 4 to 6. then woke up and did some stuff. at 6 plus i was sleepy again. went back to bed and pigged till 8 plus. whoa. i've never taken two naps in a day. it's now 11.40pm. i'm dozing off..

haha. how wonderful. i finally get to sleep all i want. it's FRIDAY today and i have no training tomorrow because of my doomsday on sunday. wahaha.

MOO.. got to go sleep already. guess that's all for today (:

that's all that matter..

11:02 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006

hmm! how's everyone?

life's kinda fun nowadays especially with class/schoolmates. of course including CCA people. wahaha. sorta enjoying school hours now. it's a period to relax before all that stress from Mid-years come again.

3 more days. to my doomsday.

haha today. lots of homework. after this post i'm gonna go bury myself under that pile of worksheets and whatnots. hope i can finish them on time!

oh ya and yesterday the class went to ACM for learning journey. i was super fascinated by the robes and symbols and stuff. it's amazing how the ancient Chinese can recognise so many different symbols when they all seemed so complicated to me. like for example if the robe has this has that means the person is a 4th rank official or something like that. wow i want to go there again!

after the trip as usual i fell asleep on the bus. Irene and Bena said that i slept till as though i was going to fall off the seat. haha. people too engrossed in sleeping! it was no wonder why my neck hurt like crazy when i woke up..

hmm. guess that's all for today. update again tomorrow.

behind all that laughter..

7:07 PM