Wednesday, May 10, 2006
hai i don't wanna care anymore..
all i get at the end of the day is just disappoinment
i'm giving it all up
i know i'm useless
no doubt about that
no matter how hard i try
it doesn't get any better
my life's in a total mess
i don't know where to go
or what to do
i'm letting everyone down
i was on my way home when
this voice in my head spoke
" hey why are you like that
you can't seem to do anything right
like what on earth is wrong with you
up till now you haven't done anything to make
anyone proud
not even your parents
teachers
friends
or yourself
ultimately you're just a piece of shit
why why why
you know what
you've just lost to
none other than
yourself "
yes that's so true
i'm such a failure
i hate myself
my life
i'm sorry guys i know i've promised
to be strong
but i can't take it anymore
i'm really tired of everything
they're affecting me so badly
perhaps i'll only give it all for track
though i still can't achieve anything
the passion is still and will be there
i hope
ha nothing else is worth the time and spirit for now
cos it's just so painful
it really hurts
no hope no light
all's blur
i cried for help but
it didn't come
i can't do it myself
guess it's better to be a nobody
whom i already am
i'm giving it all up.
10:24 PM
jade