athletics ghurL no. 11=) -WHEE*

Sunday, March 26, 2006

so today was a lesson to be learnt.

things didn't go quite well for me today. sighs. i only have myself to blame isn't it. thanks to those who 'found' me there and those who talked to me. you guys helped. sorry to have made you guys run around looking for me, to the extent of combing the Little Guilin and tearing down the hills haha. really sorry.

i guess there are some problems which nobody can solve for you except yourself. it's all right to just be depressed, breakdown, upset about the failure but afterall, it won't make time turn back. it's all up in your mind. whether you want to pick yourself up from it, or you want to just keep brooding over it and do nothing. it's all up to you.

sighs. i'm totally worn out, be it physically or mentally. i reached home with 101% unwillingness. you two don't understand what i went through. they don't understand. he doesn't understand. not even her. sighs.

i really need to depend on myself.

come on, you can do it jade. be strong. hang in there. you're gonna pick yourself up..

and to every warrior who fought the battle, yesterday or today: great effort there people. rest well.

8:56 PM