Sunday, September 17, 2006
wow today's such a cold day! i'm at home and in windbreaker and trackpants. -shivers.today's revision was not at all productive, hence Georgina and i decided to head back home sweet home and rest. i came back and finished up the last bit of my work. it's been ages since i've been alone at home. on a sunday. ahh.. the whole afternoon i've been thinking.. have i neglected my family? it's like during the weekdays i'm so busy with school, revision and exams. during the weekends i go to the library for revision. i haven't been spending my time with my family, or at least not very much. when i finally have the time, they've got something on. it's like i'm living in a separate world from them and i don't really like it. no, i don't like it at all. hmm. something to work on. but i promise after the Ends, i'll spend my weekends with them.a friend was telling me " you see everyone around you is moving on, except for you.. still living in the past."sighs. it's not that i don't want to move on. it's just that i can't. perhaps for me it needs double time. sometimes i see people moving on, i don't feel good. how could they? how could they forget those that took place in the past? are those things not of any worth to them?and then later, i realised that.. it's not that they have forgotten. it's just that they've kept the memories in a special place in their hearts.. as they move on and experience new things. which is good.. which is what everybody is supposed to do. it's just that i'm having a little difficulty that's all. but eventually i'll be able to do it.but then again.. do we really have to?oops sorry. this post's kinda random. sorry for wasting your time.good day! (:it was a wrong step on my part..i shouldn't have agreed in the first place..sorry for the inconveniencereal sorryit was due to my negligence that it has to be wasted-guilt.
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jade