Sunday, February 03, 2008
heyhey hello.haha sigh. i think my week was kinda screwed, except for the pre-Chinese New Year celebration after Soccer training.TRAINING.it's been a week.. come on man, it's been a week without running and kicking soccer balls. what could have recovered in 3 days hasn't, and it's only a little, slightly, better. i know i haven't been giving it enough rest, but i did try my best to, other than that i really needed to travel, or work.putting the fact that my fitness level is going down the drain aside, i'm rather.. i don't know what word to use. as much as i understand that now isn't the time to rush it, i cannot stand not being able to exercise! ahh i'm really on the verge of just heck care everything and go sprint on my favourite curves.sigh. sorry i don't mean to rant like this. but i very much dislike having to contemplate whether-or-not-i-should-run kinda thing. it's training again tomorrow. we won't be spending the time on the uneven field, it'll only be just running sets.. but that would be dangerous enough. for the entire day today, i've been thinking if i'm gonna join them, or just sit aside and watch (which is what i've been doing for past trainings). up till this very hour, i still haven't come to a decision. very useless.haha because this is not the first time i'm experiencing this, i'm really quite PEK WITH MYSELF!and then now this feels like when i was in sec2..or maybe a more recent incident in sec3 when i had one of my darkest times.i hope the wait is sweet this time.
8:10 PM
jade